Stay true or chown down?

So i have been a vegetarian for approximately 8 years now. People have usually 2 reactions to my previous statement:

 1. WTF why?! meat is gooood for you and deelishous.  ( i know that is spelled wrong. I'm trying to put voice into the word)

2. being vegetarian is so good for you! yay animals

well since i haven't always been a vegetarian, i can agree that meat is very delicious. and is good for you. And i can also agree with the fact that being a vegetarian is healthy for you, if done right. which i do NOT do. i hate most vegetables and the sight of a vitamin makes my insides wanna die. so i have been living, who knows how, for 8 years surviving on the sweet glory of carbohydrates. bread, cheese, and pasta. i don't know what triggered my banishment of meat. i know killing animals is wrong to me. i don't think anything should have to die. but its the way of life.

so now i am in this dilemma

i am starting to feel really weak and tired all the time. my cholesterol is out of the roof. i have already been put on medicine for it, which i dont take. i can't play volleyball cause my bones feel like they are going to break. i am weak.

i have theorized that neglecting my body from meat is the problem. or not taking vitamins but we already made the point that vitamins are not an option.

i think that i should start eating meat. but i just don't know if i can? how can i change something after i have been doing this for so long. i don't really have the urges to cheat on my vegetarian diet. i have my fake meats and stuff, which are better for you any ways. just not as delicious.

i just don't know what to do.

cow are too cute to eat.
and chickens.
and animals.

i know, just don't think about it. like it being a cow. or chicken. or ....eh i don't eat fish but still a fish. or pig.

but i need to survive.

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